Into the deep

‘Put out into the deep and let down your nets for a catch.’
Yes, Lord, and what a catch!
This was more than I bargained for.
Your love and mercy and abundance are too much for me.
If I dared, I would say, ‘Depart from me, for I am a sinful man,’
but You already know it, already know everything about me.
You even teach me about myself things I could never know.
You know I am sinful.
That’s why You came for me.
That’s why You called me.
That’s why I even exist at all.
You love me.

Me, a good Christian? No.
A good man? Again, no.
I might dream I am good somehow,
but out of that silly dream I always awake.

We are just following You, Lord.
Following along the saints who follow behind You,
hoping that we will continue from day to day,
knowing that every step is only at Your beckoning.

All we can cry out is,
‘Lord, help us to know you more,
so that we can love You more, and loving You more,
that we gladly run to fulfill Your word,
that it does not return to You void.’

Now, where to next?
Help me to keep my eyes on You.
Help me to walk, my feet fitting Your footprints.
Raise me when I fall.
Carry me when I am too weak to move.
Awaken me when I slumber,
raise me again from the sleep of death every day,
for You are the Resurrection and the Life.

Change me,
renew my mind,
turn me around,
help me to repent.

Lord, I am not worthy
that You should come under my roof.
But speak the word only, and my soul shall be healed.
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